do to or not to do, thats the question

2008-08-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

look at your goals and work towards it.

you have a complete life. right?

or so you think.

2008-07-19T02:00:00.000-07:00

i have not blogged here for a long time.
time is running out. F is the word for now.
fast. far. fail.
it nearly broke yesterday. it nearly rolled down. but it didn't. everything is just pilling up on it. i will burst soon. it really will.
you are 5 km away from the shore. you will die and drown, but the question is how much you want to swim before you die.

i have officially gotten over you. life is back to normal. i do not think about you like i do in the past. my reaction to you is no longer what it is last time. well. i've gotten over you dude!

2007-12-01T21:42:00.001-08:00

hey!
its the holidays. i know i have people reading this perverted blog. ahem ahem. i don't know.
i like one republic now. think that their songs are damn cool. i'm trying to learn something from them. found a great website, www.drumscores.com. check it out.
i don't know the difference between black and white.
:)
i don't know the difference between black and white, so then, how would you know the contact point. hmm... well i don't.
i don't like this blog, makes me think of people.

2007-10-09T21:19:00.000-07:00

i'm really confused now. i need to reflect. i want to be a changed person after today. can someone help me. the obvious answer is no. cos in this aspect, only the person that falls can stand up herself. god, help me though this.

2007-09-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

ah! i survived one week of school so far. its very close to EOYs and I'm not even starting on anything. help me! all the best regina! jia you!
freaking. i have a ymca interview on 22th! sigh. tell me that it won't take long and clash with my guitar lesson. trinity exam! help!
i'm alot behind time. maybe i should go out too much. i'm try to control myself! aaahhhh!
:D i'm happy cos i slept alot today!
are you trying to show me that you are very family oriented? well, you reached your purpose. but didn't you think the holding was a little too extreme for little minds like your sis? oh well... its your sis after all!

2007-09-05T19:02:00.000-07:00

i'm a winner! of slacking!
:D
look! its a bird! no! its not! its superman!

2007-09-04T09:10:00.000-07:00

i'm pissed off now. i'm really really pissed off now. i'm seriously seriously pissed off now. i'm wasting my holidays away! i'm pissed off.
:(
thanks for the walk home. i hope nothing happened. hahahhaha!

2007-09-02T19:43:00.000-07:00

almost...
i didn't know about it all. i wanted to let you know. but i know you would misunderstand my intentions. so whats the point. what goes around comes around. i think i'll suffer in future too...
alright! so long fairwell! its time to say goodbye!
:D

2007-09-02T01:17:00.000-07:00

i'm planning my timetable now.
i don't know where to start with mugging. everything is everywhere. here i am slacking and there is everything slogging their lives out mugging. i shall join the game! all the best regina! go go go go go!!! whatever. what kind of self motivation! how effective.
:D
when i asked if .... is chasing, .... confirmed it. why can't you just learn from him boboo! stop dwelling on the stupid issue loser!

2007-09-01T01:59:00.001-07:00

i have not blogged for a long long long long long long long long time. well there is nothing interesting in life anyway.
its finally the holidays. but it will be mugging all the way. i hope i have the determination. i really really hope so. all the best regina. don't slack!
we held our inspire closing ceremony today at ny auditorium. didn't sleep much the night before and i was super tired at that time. busy busy busy, had to rush here there and everywhere and my freaking shoes hurt to the core! Dr vivian balakrishnan came and graced the occasion. how nice. anyway we didn't reach our target of $100 000. so bye inspire. what a disappointment.
band practices have stood down already. i hope the sec1s can manage with sia. really really hope they will improve and be prepared before they join the main band, or else they will suffer like how we did like time. all the best trombabes!
went back to cvps on teachers' day eve. saw miss tan and i just she is as usual busy busy busy. lots of changes in the school. caught up with some of the guys and found out that PSP was actually fun to play with! i also saw you there. although you didn't say much but i can feel that you are observing me. whatever as you say :P hope you understand that its not easy for me also. happy chasing.....
i have practical in like 2 weeks time and freaking, i have not practiced much. mr ng knows that i need warm ups before actual playing which is bad and will actually bring my playing down since there is usually no warm ups for electones during exams. gave him a teachers day present. a bottle of gum! hahaha. hope it will help him keep awake during lessons! hahahhaha....
this holidays will be busy. but after surviving through an entire year of juggling school and inspire, i think it SHOULD be easier. go regina go!
:D
when both of you started to talk about the past, i really don't know what to say. only that i'm not ready. i'm like a sandwich stuck between 2. both are pressing but i'm not moving.

2007-08-28T05:22:00.000-07:00

my time is filled with you.
i have just amazingly arranged my holiday and it now sucks totally. i don't know how to describe it but it just sucks. i'm getting slacker in terms of attitude and everything. help me. i should push myself harder next time! should i? chem test tomorrow, particles of me will start flying away.
:D
you didn't reply me. i wonder what happened.

2007-08-23T06:59:00.000-07:00

i'm in a mad rush.
as usual, i have a thousand and one things to do. but just NO TIME.
well, the triple jew will bless me. tomorrow's going to be a VERY busy day. how am i going to cope. i'll see when tomorrow comes. chill in the mean time regina!
:D
its rather obvious that i'm trying to avoid that topic. just let go and there is still a long way to go.

2007-08-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

INSPIRE CONCERT! PLEASE SUPPORT!
i'm in a mad rush now. i have so many things to do. but so little time. maybe that is what i have been saying since sec1. whatever.
gtg to study! bye

2007-08-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

INSPIRE'07 ARTS.
SPREAD THE WORD. TAKE THE STAGE.

Inspire is a student-initiated project aimed at raising awareness and funds for The Straits Times School Pocket Money Fund. Inspire ‘07: Arts aims to help the Straits Times Pocket Money Fund while furthering other areas we feel equally passionate about- inspiring the youth of today, and promoting the arts. We hope to encourage other young adults, including the beneficiaries of the Straits Times Pocket Money Fund, to chase their dreams, be it as aspiring artistes or otherwise, through showing them anything is possible. And we need your help for this.

TAKE THE STAGE
Date: 24th August 2007
Time: 8.00 pm- 10.00 p.m.
Venue: University Cultural Centre
GOH: RAdm Lui Tuck Yew

One stage
2 hours
Infinite talent.

Brace yourself for the first ever Inspire ‘07 concert! Featuring some of the many young talents in Singapore, it will be an evening of heart-stopping beats and jaw dropping moves, entirely organized and performed by youths.

Featuring: Singapore Ballet Academy, Lindy Hop Ensemble, SYF 2007 Gold with Honours winner, Hwa Chong Institution Music and Dance Club , popular hip-hop crew, The iLLers, local talent Amanda Tee, Rocky Waters, Patent Pending, RJC String Quartet, contemporary theatre from ACSian Theatre, among others.

Tickets are priced at $10, $15, $25 and $100. $100 tickets are special charity tickets for people who would like to make a larger donation.

Tickets available from SISTIC.

really hope that everyone would come for the concert! please support! tell me your replies by this wednesday! i love people that supports! yeah!
i'm running mad from school. everything is stacking up and i'm buried in the bottom. but this time, its different, cos there wouldn't be anyone to save me anymore. i'll have to climb up myself. and i'll do it without your help.
:D
remember that sms. mine is the super big one.

2007-08-16T07:05:00.000-07:00

i'm bored.
i'm gay.
i'm stressed.
i love and hate.
:D

2007-08-06T06:26:00.000-07:00

haha. hehe. hoho. i'm in no mood to laugh.
haha. hehe. hoho. i'm home there.

2007-08-02T06:47:00.000-07:00

i lost my voice. but i lost something more important.
i'm waiting for your reply... please do.
:D

2007-07-28T01:11:00.000-07:00

i'm bored at home!
sick. went to the doctor's just now. given lots of medicine. how LOVELY... but then again, saw karine lee there! yeah! didn't really talk to her. hope she is doing well.
2 sick people makes one good link.

2007-07-27T09:31:00.001-07:00

YES!
finally its the end of the week! you can just cannot see how happy i am. i know i didn't work hard enough for all the test. but i did try. oh well. i expect alot more chance for me to max myself out. we'll see what happens when it reaches the top. warning... beware!
band today was a waste of time. didn't do anything. my throat is soaring with razors. cannot play much cos my sound sucks.
esther's birthday today! yeah! may all your wishes come true! :D
watched harry potter and i think the movie is so short, the scenes don't really link together. not to the extent that it is sucky but just not smooth.
ah... tomorrow at 7am? that is mad :P
stoner! are you trying to use my technique against me? well, just note that i'm super hard! :P 110737

2007-07-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

i'm dying. i have chinese and chem test tomorrow and i'm so died. have not studied for ANYTHING. somebody please kill me. i'm going to mug through the night. and not sleep and wake up early IF i happen to fall asleep. OH MAN!
angels please bless me! this is what i call stress. not actually pissed off. hope you are feeling better today :D
band today was ok. sch today was boring. with luo lao shi scolding us for getting bad grades. oh please, maybe she doesn't know that our standard was like that all the while :) i shall TRY to motivate myself to study. mugger me.
ciao! off to mug!
moo, hope you are doing well with today's test. 110737 always.

2007-07-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

one down, 3 more to go. or should i say 5 more weeks to go?
i'm suffering from lack of sleep. and the agony of looking at the harry potter book but having no time to actually open the book to read it. how sad. pity me. well, believe in tomorrow. it will be better i think. school today is funny. ivy and nat disappeared for recess leaving angela and me to roam the canteen. whatever. unsw math paper was crap. i didn't bother to waste my energy on it. so for question 28, the lucky number? 13. my own lucky number :)
now, time to mug for chem, math AND CHINESE.
we are suffering from the lag of time. but you are always not lagging in my heart. :)

2007-07-22T07:03:00.000-07:00

it has been a month plus since i last posted. oh well. who cares? no ones reading... shhhh....
school now is horrible! imagine 5week a week starting from this week on. oh man. spare me some time to go out please! however for now, first priority is to read HARRY POTTER then hw and lastly study. although i know i will never ever finish the book within this month. its mission impossible. :)
went for SJI band concert yesterday. was nice in general. at least got to go out as a section again. i love trombones!
wish me luck for the coming week! esther's birthday, what should i buy?
dear, sorry for not replying. i really have no intention to ignore it. 110737

2007-06-23T01:46:00.000-07:00

the holidays are ending soon. very soon. i have not done everything that needs doing. everything. but i have given up. close to...

2007-06-14T08:25:00.000-07:00

i'm bored at home. i have nothing to do. not true. i have but i don't want to do. i don't feel like doing. a part of me is missing. i don't know. the motivation part. oh well, i'm going to burst soon. i just want to give up. i want to run away. but i know its impossible.
oh well. things are getting more and more difficult to do. more and more stuff are coming up and now i don't even get support. so most likely, i think i will just sit and stone. i need some one efficient and fast and willing. oh well! for now, i cannot be bothered to do anything other then just wait for the person of the right kind to appear. please come soon....

2007-06-09T19:31:00.000-07:00

i'm bored now. i have nothing to do. not really nothing to do. but tons of things to do. but i just don't feel like doing. maybe i'm just too in love with somethings to work.
i have a blister on my finger!

2007-06-07T21:42:00.000-07:00

it has been ages since i last updated. come to think of it, POP is over, PPR is out, and its the holidays.
what kind of holiday will this be? i wonder too. band, inspire, school. i have not actually had a holiday day yet. not a day where i can stone at home and stare blankly at the 4 walls of my room or even try to practise my guitar till my hands grow blisters or practise my trombone til my lips bleed. sigh... i'm doing so much, but i'm not going to do well in any. arg! oh well.
next week will be free for me. i plead everyone to please not tell me to do things on week3. i need the time. aaahhh... at least week3 will be a busy one for everyone except me :) i will feel the satisfaction of staying at home more then 12 hours a day!
i have a thousand things to do. but not everything is done by yet. well, i have people rushing me 24/7 on those things... i promise my 'dear' creditors that i will hand them in next week!
wednesday was great for me!
:D

2007-05-21T06:03:00.000-07:00

i gave up
i gave up not

2007-05-13T02:43:00.000-07:00

i just love my section

well esther, i agree. if we were les, dongran would have died. hahahhahah!

jubilate was nice. although its the last performance. but we rocked. our spirit will never die. SNSB bravo!

i'm about to make a decision. i really need someone by my side. i wonder if i'm being influenced. tell me someone...

2007-05-09T03:58:00.000-07:00

well. my attitude sucks. whatever you say. everytime i talk, you think that rubbish is pouring out of my mouth. so why bother talking. after all, you don't listen. when its time, i get the blame. simple as that. regina... why are you wondering so much. after all you are always at fault. even if inside you you know. nvm... just accept it. cos it is your fault whatever it concerns. just shut up a accept it. cos you are nobody to talk. well... after all YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS! just accept it, you are always in fault and don't bother cos no one will listen cos your attitude sucks. work life is difficult. school is all fun. wonder why i work so hard for... you can be in a bad mood. others cannot. my attitude sucks, well i think my life sucks more.
maybe one day you will know why we like to go out so often... just after all our attitude sucks.

2007-05-06T08:10:00.000-07:00

i'm motivated. i just won a battle against someone. i feel accomplished. yeah! today's drums lessons rock! didnt have to play boring triplets and stupid rock beats. instead we played GREEN DAY songs!!!!!! hooray!!!! finally some music. but then again, my ears are ringing now. cos its too noisy in the room. hahahaha.
i'm motivated. i tried to be guai. but i don't think its working. haha... at least not now. i'm kinda died for my bio test on tuesday. but i'm too high here. i have tests tomorrow but i still look forward to the day! 3 cheers to life!!!
:D
i'm so sorry for making you depressed. well, all i can do now to make up for it is... moo:737011!

2007-04-23T05:44:00.000-07:00

went vivo city with meichi and nat today. ate sushi tei and shopped around. had a hard time trying to control nat from buying too much stuff. finally she decided on her birthday present and i guess i have to start saving again. i also bought a necklance that has a guitar pick on it. i find it rather cool! and i just realise that i actually like things that concern guitars. anyway, today was fun with nat and meichi! AND I LOVE GUITARS!

study hard dear!

2007-04-21T21:49:00.000-07:00

i thing here represents my heart.
its sunday and the morning is just lazy. i'm inspired to do better. life is just so amazing. one time i just couldn't be bother to do anything and now i'm determined to work harder. i hope we prove everyone wrong. we can reach for our goal. no matter what happens we are still the best and we know that! so from today on. i will do my very best! YES! i will! go regina run and all the way!
:D
hey, thanks so much for your dinner! i owe you one.

2007-04-19T04:51:00.000-07:00

i seriously in love with you. i wonder how i tell you. convince you.
:D

2007-04-18T03:17:00.000-07:00

i'm just normal cos i'm just not thinking about it. but the reality hasn't shink in yet. give me time. i will adapt. now recesses and lunches are so boring. nothing to do. nothing to work for. its just so empty. but at least now i know that i have to rush for all my homework which is not going to let me sleep properly tonight. sigh.
i love trombones!
i love you too.

2007-04-17T06:55:00.000-07:00

trombabes. i don't know what to say. i know everyone is disappointed. with ourselves and for letting people down. we know this is not our best but lets just accept it. this time i think it really shows how bonded we are and how badly we want the gold. but as some say, silver is now the new gold. we did well enough. we improved tons from last time. and i think we deserve a break. let the pressure all out and just relax for a while. although we didn't do well this time. promise me everyone. we will not give up just like that. and we will do 2X better for jubilate and NBC. we will! and i shall make sure we do!
SB unite we'll show our might
we'll show them how our people fight.
we'll walk to the front with courage and might cos an' no body's gonna break our stride.

sorry for the disappointment.

2007-04-14T19:22:00.000-07:00

its only 2 more days to syf. sia seems happy now a days. everyone says we are improving. but i think they are happy just because they want us to bring out the merry in the piece. i don't think we are of gold standard yet. maybe with just a little push on monday things will work out just fine. just hope everything turns out fine. seriously everyone is trying but we must know that its not our fault if anything happens and we don't achieve. but still the pressure is on, cos syf is after all everything.
on the other side of life. everything is going on fine. so just work hard guy, and you will reach the stage where others have reached. have faith in yourself and me. :P
:D
inspire is killing me, together with school.

2007-04-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

tkgs got gold. i wonder if sia will have any chain reaction to that tomorrow. everyone is scared. i think she is going to kick more out after knowing that the judges are so strict this year. i hope we do well, well enough as to not break the SNSB record at least. i really don't know what my reaction will be like if we do worst that what we should get, cos i have never gone for a losing battle. i hope this will not be one of them. seriously, i want the gold!!! so much!!!!! work harder everyone. its still possible.
i'm death from all the work load and mental stress.
:D
good luck for your syfs, joel!

2007-04-07T07:15:00.000-07:00

its not that i want to nag, scold, shout and scream at you all. but have you even thought, syf is like life and death for us. its not as easy as 1 2 3. its not how many hours you put in, but rather the quality of your hours. to you, you might be working hard. but compared to the rest, we are nothing. everyone says that we are the black sheep among all. but inside ourselves we know that that's not the furthest we can go. everyone wants a chance to be inside. or shall i say, people are fighting to be inside. but if you all are in, please buck up and prove that you are worth the place. among yourselves you might feel that its normal. but other's don't think that way. i know its stressful to you. but have you ever felt true stress before? its 10 times worst. by screaming at you, you think we are enjoying it? we ourselves are also stressed to produce something for everyone. if we don't even bother then we could have just sat there and stone. its not only you are hurt, we have lost tears too. we really don't want to see the day come by and everyone blaming us for the bad results. its not only the current badge but instead ALL the seniors who have worked so hard. you might not know them, but you can feel the pressure. having said so much, its still no use, you won't change your attitude. or would you prove me wrong? i don't seniors to say that we are the badge that bought everything down. help us to help yourselves.

2007-04-02T04:43:00.000-07:00

went for acjc concert yesterday and it rocks! maybe this will be the inspiration for the year. you know, for me, every concert i go for generally inspire me on something. electone concert? practise harder and since the last then 10years old kids can do it, why can't i do it too? yesterday's concert? try to achieve the tone of theirs. after all, i say they are like 10 times better then us even ACS barker. so i see, we still have a LONG way to go! i don't want to pull everyone down. just just just... maybe maybe maybe. but i hope i will try all my best to prevent it from happening. more recess and after sch pracs i come!
monday is such a bad day to start the week. played for morning assembly and found out that the sec2s still cannot memorise their pieces. sigh. what do i have to say. its just 'see it for yourself'. -looks at esther- school today was rather normal, nothing bad happened. not like i'm waiting for something bad to happen.
i believe tomorrow would be the same, if not better.
:)
i didn't know. even if i did, i wouldn't have done anything.

2007-03-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

i didn't manage to complete my sudoko. something went wrong. i don't want to know why i didn't. finally, for once i can sleep without regrets cos i completed all my homework! yeah! cheers!
:D
go trombones! we can do it. its only left with 9 pracs more!
moli gave me the power to continue.
thanks moo for the encouragement!

2007-03-24T20:42:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the first saturday band prac for us. it will be better! all the way trombones! we can do it. monday is the rehearsal, we shall work hard and not bring the band down!
i have you to be with
everything will be easy

2007-03-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

today's band prac was hell. i played with all my strength. its like killing myself. my throat hurts now and my body is aching. but at least i think i improved. a little at least. i think my lips will die soon. sia just cut some parts of merry widow and apparently now i don't even have a break. if you call last then 20 secs break then fine.
i'm so tired. just like everyday. i don't want to go to school! aahhh!!! help! what rubbish am i talking? i don't want to do anything!
mo li :)

2007-03-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

they are changing. its comfirmed. i hope it will be better. but i know everyone is blaming us for it. they pretend to be nice but actually they are just saying things behind your back. walls have ears, just like humans. i'm so tired now, sick at the same time. i don't want to do anything although i know i cannot not do anything.
only mo li is keeping me going. all the way!
went to support the hockey team today. rock on guys!
i will reach the end, i will, will i?

2007-03-20T05:54:00.000-07:00

the expression on my face only answers for how disappointed i am in myself. i tried my best. but my best was not good enough for them. i practiced and did every i could do, but it was not good enough. i'm so disappointed in myself. why can't i get it right? everyone is improving, why not me? sometimes i just feel that i should not pull everyone down. they had to adapt to fit in for us. its not fair. i'm feeling low. nothing can save me.
i'm very tired of life. its long and sick. i want to sleep. i want to have freedom. everything is piling up. its getting to me. i don't want to bring everything down!
you are my mo li. you give me the little energy when i feel like giving up and continued.

2007-03-14T05:10:00.000-07:00

hello no one!
have not been updating much but i think no one will notice after all cos it has been dead for a seriously long time. but who cares, my life is just half screwed up.
just bought a new guitar, almansa 436. really liked it alot alot! it has a cedar top and indian rosewood for the sides and its gold tuning! aahhh.... i'm also contented with it. until now i still cannot believe that my dad actually bought it. its not cheap but he still bought it. i'm damn happy about it! i just cannot keep the feeling within me soon. aaaahhhhhh! it has a leather case too! and did i mention that he also bought a drum set for my brother. three cheers to daddy!
today band sucked. i don't know where to start with. i just don't want to elaborate. one bad thing after another. don't mention about what happened before band after all i know its 'my fault'. i wonder what i did wrong in the first place and maybe its really 'my fault'. i will always remember it then. anyway, actual band prac today still sucked. my throat damn pain. maybe thats why now i cannot talk. haha. finally there is peace in the world cos regina can't talk. i really suck. i really cannot cannot cannot play! i suck lah. thats the verdict. i really cannot play either piece. i shouldn't have played during combine, only spoils the sound. but thats not the worst. i know my tone and pitch sucks but can ppl just stop giving me pressure by turning their heads around and staring. its bloody irritating. its not like i don't know that i suck and don't want to change but sometimes its not in my control. i'm so sick of ppl telling me that i suck. I KNOW THAT MYSELF! and i'm trying to change. don't stare at me!
i talked to you today and you seem to forget everything of our past. although i had a strong front, but inside, i'm silently crying.

2007-02-22T07:21:00.001-08:00

it has been a LONG time since i last updated. life in school is as usual. trying not to get so many F9s for this terms ppr. but unfortunately i already earned myself 3 of them. after all its only the first term and i tried my best at least. thats what i tell myself.
CNY just past. all the food and drinks are making me fatter. still in the festiv mood and all the red packets. going to chen bin house on sat to mess his place up. joking! haha, owe him an outing and he promised me a punch in the face if i don't turn up for the gathering. haha. black eye panda!
i have a sudden interest in cars and shoes now. sneaker shoes i mean. and cool cars on the other hand. having band exchange on sat. i bet i will throw my own face when i see my pri sch band mates there. if there is ever one. i will just hide and die.
tomorrow is friday! all the way!
:D

2007-02-22T07:21:00.000-08:00

2007-02-10T20:48:00.000-08:00

i was in a bad mood on friday. super bad mood. i don't know why, not just because of one factor but maybe due to everything that happened. i don't feel like talking about it. so, bye.

2007-02-06T05:55:00.000-08:00

i think we are growing fat. haha! as mrs chan said. snacking in class will only make you put on weight. and i totally agree with it. but the fact is, i don't care! sometimes its just really hard to concentrate in class without eating something or at least smsing a LITTLE. haha! anyway. i find also of people in class eating more than me. ( stares at cassandra chee) haha! so, i don't care! i'm just plain slack.
band today was horrible. if only sia kicked me out. at least i will not be in such stress. she practically made me and denise play for the whole thing. i nearly died on the spot. should i go for self prac tomorrow then?
i'm tired of life.
:D

2007-01-31T05:16:00.000-08:00

i'm still confused. i seriously am. i don't show it, but inside, i know that there is some silent spot that is still telling me to search for the answer. life is just getting weirder. i want to know answers! why!?
life in class is getting more and more interesting day by day. as everyone knows, mrs chan just banned eating in class. and as everyone knows, no one cares. everybody is still eating like its no ones business. haha, including myself. i think i'm turning healthy cassandra chee into a pig! now she has to eat something every now and then to keep awake. haha! cassandra is addicted to the snacks i bring! including all the chocolates and how we put kopi o sweets into the cute choco boxs and play scissors paper stone with it! call it cool or what.
i know sia is going to scold my section again tomorrow. so i don't care. i'm not scared of her, but just that i'm disappointing myself and the rest of the people.
today feels weird to me too!

2007-01-30T03:54:00.000-08:00

i'm in a extremely bad mood now. everything just spoilt my day. what the hell. got scolded by sia like crazy today. i seriously don't understand why i cannot play. it was fine a few minutes ago. WHT! what the freak! and before that, i bloody helling dropped my slide. kill me please. i'm not frustrated because i got scolded. but i'm just sad cos i disappointed myself. why can't i play properly. call me stupid or whatever, i don't care. the unanswered question just keeps floating in my brain. and i get all agitated and moody because of this bloody hell issue. i know its not worth my effort but i still cannot answer my own question! i never wanted to get involved in politic and just do my best in playing. but now, even a simple thing like playing, i cannot do. i seriously need answers!!!! why? why? i'm already really really sick and tired of all your crap. can you just cut it out. cos seriously we cannot waste anymore time crapping, everything is in RED ALERT! i don't know what i'm driving at, i just need answers!!!!!!!!!! is sia really a wake up call to all? is bronze really all that we can get? i don't understand why/
i'm disappointed not because i got a scolding, but i'm disappointed in myself.

2007-01-29T03:51:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder if i should believe them or to believe the true you which i'm not sure if that the real you. life is complicated. what is white may be black, what is black maybe not so white. there are always the grey potions. but one things for sure. i'm not getting involved in all those cos there is no point in doing so. after what is yours will be yours, what is not yours, you will never get it no matter what. god, just give me the will to make correct decisions! study hard and work hard regina!
you will go far in this world, if you know how to touch a girl.

2007-01-27T21:15:00.000-08:00

SHE concert yesterday! rock on guys! all the way!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

2007-01-26T07:44:00.000-08:00

i'm in a bad mood. my gum is damn painful. my whole cheek is swollen! SUCKYLY SUCKY. anyway, causing me wasting my time in band today. cos i cannot even play a single note. so i just sat there and wipe and wipe my instrument. school this week was seriously hell. been sleeping late and agree with mooris, panda eyes. haha. anyway, at least there is progress.
:D

2007-01-25T05:05:00.000-08:00

one for all, all for one.
when i hear this phrase resurface in my memory, i was touched. remembering how innocant and joyful we were last and compared to now. i don't want o grow up!
:D

2007-01-20T19:12:00.000-08:00

i'm not slacking, that is if you ever suspected me. i'm doing some homework which i don't find any interest in. everyone is out today except me, still at home doing my hw. for once i slept 9hours last night! i'm so happy! so glad. indeed as mooris said, i really have panda like eyes that i think i can win the competition for the most panda like eyes even if my competitor was a panda. haha... not funny. i'm lame! for now. goal for today: finish as much hw as possible and study a little more and at the same time finished my burning love and practise my guitar. wish me good luck! thanks
:D
don't use love cos its too strong a word.

2007-01-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

i'm trying to keep awake but its just so impossible. with little hours spent on sleeping, i think my reaction will get slower, slower and SLOWER. haha. i'm in a nice mood now cos i FOUND MY WATCH! I LOVE 1 WISDOM! thanks to them, i lost and found my watch there. anyway, i promise i will be nice to this years sec1s since they are equally nice! i'm crazy, but i don't think this promise will last. no school tomorrow at least. but still a LONG day ahead. tell me when i should just give up, i have no time. i need 48 hours a day!
when you said you were not free for me, my heart dropped.

2007-01-17T05:29:00.000-08:00

i'm not in a good mood. was scolded during lessons just now by some teacher that i don't really like. not that i don't want to try to respect her, but just that she believes in first impression too much that she just doesn't know how to sympathise for others. can't she see that i'm trying very hard to complete my work? i have not had more then 6 hours of sleep for the past 3 days. i'm very tired... sigh. 2 more days to go! we can do it! i know we can! if only they would understand...
i see the small glitter and i'm encouraged but at that point of time, she comes along and slice it away.

2007-01-16T05:11:00.000-08:00

have not posted in a LONG time! today was a harsh day with band and stuff going on. i just don't seem to have enough time to do things that i AM suppose to do! its just so irritating. knowing that you have stuff to complete but unable to get them done cos you just need your 5 hours sleep at least is just hell. I WANT MORE TIME!
had band today. my lungs nearly burst. but i think we are all playing better now, compared to last month at least. but come to think of it, there is still more to be done with syf coming closer day by day. should i be happy or sad? sometimes i ask myself questions that i don't understand.
failed my english diagnostic test badly. i want to cry, but tears just couldn't come out. sigh... i think i'll have to go for english remedial! i should just accept my fate.
at least there is fianlly something to be happy about! i finally got my stagea!!!! OMG! thats so amazing! AAAAHHHHH!!!! sold my old electone EL 900M for like 5K plus. my dad said that this would be the last electone that he will buy be by the time 10 years pass, where maybe the next model comes out, i would already be working myself. THANKS DAD & MUM! i love it so much. at least now, i have a motivition to practise at least 30mins everyday. yeah!
:D
i read an article on the newspaper saying that guys and girls can never only be good friends, and i disagree to it.

2006-12-30T19:14:00.000-08:00

hey! my internet connection is finally back! went for grandpa's birthday dinner yesterday. they booked a fairly big room with these karaok set as usual. lucky this time the songs in the set is not all the pop music. if not, i bet we will be listening to the singing of my not so baby cousin singing the lao su ai da mi song. haha! anyway, the food there was nice.
update on my hw. done most of it. but alot was half done. and i have not bought my lit book! so how! i'm going to die! actually, i don't care. worst come to worst i shall go online and just read the summary of the book. sigh... talked to meichi online till 2 plus and just found out who is my FT. i hope she is nice. after all there is BAND FIRST THING IN THE MORNING ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! not that i'm unhappy about it. just that i want to go back to class. haha!
tell me! should i use my sling bag as school back or the normal turtle back converse one? sigh... decisions decisions to make. have not bought my pencil case and water bottle yet. maybe i should just use back my old one.
i don't want to start school! i have not had enough fun yet!
:D
i dont want to talk about it
cos i'm in love with you

2006-12-26T05:15:00.000-08:00

band today was horrible! andrea and denise didn't come and i think i became braindead when sia scolded or even talked to me. sigh. hope that luck will be by my side tomorrow. haha. i'm too tired to type. bye!
:S

2006-12-23T21:13:00.000-08:00

went for ai mei li's(emily) christmas party yesterday. got to check up with all of them and found out that actually alot of them have not started on their hw. haha. better finish mine by this xmas holiday or else i bet i will be so tired with band prac next week that i will not do. anyway, got to team up with nat to complain about emily's GREAT hosting skills. ' YOU DROP, YOU DIE!' haha. so fun. got to exchange presents also, thanks dawn for your cards! :D enjoyed the food alot and the company. meichi nat amanda dawn cass karina yiying emily!
:D
HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!
it will be a white christmas!

2006-12-21T05:57:00.001-08:00

its coming to the end. tell me who to look for. who to lean on...

2006-12-20T03:28:00.000-08:00

I BELIEVE MISS SIA! OMG! its just so amazing! i was practising my trombone just now and believe me my skills have gone from bad to worst. there is NO tone at and suddenly i thought of the blowing exercise sia used to do with my section. and i tried it out and it works, you can truely hear the difference! its just so cool! I CAN REACH HIGH G FOR FESTIVAL PRELUDE! i'm so happy. but i hope this is not only for today! please not let it be for today only. just found out that andrea and denise are both not going for band practise on 26th, so that means that if sia comes, she will KILL me! i'm so scared! aaahhhh.... lets see, using jessling's terms is ' my stomach is like a washing machine now! ' haha! anyway. hope to practise like everyday for this week and finish all my hw other then chinese by this week cos seriously i HATE chinese hw. haha. but no choice, as parents always say its all for our own good. PRACTISE HARD EVERYONE! cos syf is coming so fast. just thinking of 2years ago where cvps band was so busy with convington square. i still think it's a nice piece! work hard trombones!
:D
i need someone like you. if only...

2006-12-19T18:50:00.000-08:00

another slack day at home. practised my trombone at home and blast my brother's ears away. its just so unsuitable to be played at home. i can say that if the trombone is in sch, i think i would practise more there rather then bringing it home. sigh, have to seriously start on hw. the holidays are ending soon. i want more!
:D
today is a happy day!

2006-12-18T22:57:00.000-08:00

what the freak! doesn't mean you are in the bloody hell bad mood and the whole world owes you something. what an foolish action. this only shows the difference between a cultured person and a person like you. not that i am cursing you. but with an attitude like that i can only hope that you will go far enough. freako. doesn't mean you have the right. YOU SUCK! if not for who i am. i would have already walked out. stupid... cannot stand it. the water is boiling inside me. maybe one day you will understand why i like to go out more, cos you are there! you think you are very great? ha... you are just nobody compared to others. you are seriously mentally WRONG!
sorry to do it but i just have to let my steam out somewhere if not i will i think i will die of high blood pressure.

2006-12-18T04:49:00.000-08:00

have not been updating much now.basically cos its the holidays and i didnt do much. sigh. my sleeping pattern has changed. now i sleep at 3am in the morning and wake up. like at 10am. like that, i saved lots of $$ cos i only need to eat 2 meals a day. what a clever idea. if only this can continue for long. anyway, i did something productive today! i finally started on my holiday hw. i think i will be able to complete it in time. i hope. ok. thats all, save more $$ for xmas presents!
:D

2006-12-13T05:49:00.000-08:00

i just made a worm out of bent wire. i shall call it wormy.
trying to upload all the photos in my com into gmail but its just taking so damn long. brother's birthday tomorrow. hope everything goes well.
:D

2006-12-10T07:50:00.000-08:00

i'm trying to drown myself with youtube now. have to do hw soon but i don't feel like starting at all. going to school tomorrow. i don't feel like going. i want to sleep late! sigh. but still have to go. had gastic just now. didn't eat lunch. maybe i trying to kill myself with not eating. but the problem is i'm not hungry. tell me what to do.
night then...
:D

2006-12-07T03:25:00.000-08:00

OMG! i'm so happy! but pressured at the same time cos my dad just comfirmed the order for the stagea! i finally got it! and its brand new. guessed he finally decided to comfirm the order and pay the deposit cos i heard its the last one still on sale for this shipment. but on the other hand. i bet they expect an A1 from me for my mep which will be IMPOSSIBLE! a good bargain for them as they can exchange $16000 for a good grade. but not for me. now, i have no reason to slack anymore. sigh. at least i still have a few weeks more to go for my EL900M cos the new one will only come in when we sold this one. just pray everything goes the way it should be! but i'm still happy!
band today. yeewen came back and there is only 4 people from our section. sia didn't come but we didn't slack for the first part of the practice. only at the last 45 minutes where we were really really tired did we start to talk. it was all crappy and poor weiping didn't know alot of things. she is just a innocant girl living in her sweety world! :P got to know alot of WEIRD stuff at the same time. interesting... anyway, congrats to jessling for being squad leader! never expect it cos its a tough fight between carina and her. but still... ahahha. band today was fun. lets compare it to the others when the greys left and sectionals was so dead. its a huge gap.
:D

2006-12-06T04:44:00.000-08:00

went out with rena, daphane, qiyuan, nick, aiklong, kokhon and kokwee today. had lunch at kfc and went to watch happy feat. tell me that the story line is lousy cos i just wasted my money on it. haha, maybe not really cos the singing part is O.K. after that we went to play 2 hours of pool and guess what. I DID BETTER THAN THE FIRST TIME! i'm so happy now. but also tired. after all its 2 hours of standing. fun day actually. funny things going on at the same time also. will see..
:P

2006-12-05T07:01:00.000-08:00

have not been updating much. i wonder why. maybe it has been like that all the while! i just cannot be bothered. everything is just so heavy now.
band prac today. tell me what is tired. i'm just like a dead pig here. left arm totally aching. ask me why, cos the 'slacking' trombones have been in the band room since 10.30 for self prac. how slack can we get. haha. how slack man! anyway, suppose to have section lunch today but yeewen and yizhen had to miss it. one for beauty and the other for money. so they left valerie alone with us. haha. and i think we really broke the record for the holiday pracs. cos we got kicked out of the room twice in like 1/2 hour. MY TONE SERIOUSLY SUCKS! anyway, thats not the point. sia was crazy she just did 1 hour of warm up and sectionals that is. how relax. BUT, before she left for home, i walked past her and she said, regina ah, can you work harder! eh... is she telling me that after the 2 weeks break, she expects me to be better then before i left. haha. tell me how to die. anyway, at least now i there is a break. at least there is one! so.... enjoy all you can cos i predict the next one won't be any where near syf. hahahahahahha....
:D

2006-12-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

i'm bored. i have nothing to do. i feel guailty for not practising at all. maybe i have just given up hope on it. maybe not! i don't know. guild me. don't tell me what to do but show me.
i finally saw you. but you seem to be behind a clear glass. unable to reach you. no matter how hard i try.

2006-11-28T06:32:00.000-08:00

band today was not as tiring as the last one. got the score for syf set piece. fresh from the ovan. still hot! haha, anyway there is 2 songs, one for it is i think singapore sunrise and another one is night safari. the SS was not difficult for trombones compared to the woodwinds. the other piece though was very interesting cos i saw the score and it sounds like every section is trying to produce the sound of animals. very cool! i think trombones are snakes cos there are alot of parts where we must hiss. haha. fun piece i hope BUT it looks difficult. anyway, got transfered again unfortunately. just when i have learnt all the 2nd parts. sigh. and i think its not morally right that sia changed me! injustice! objection!! and the worst part is my high notes the tone is ALOT WORST then andrea's! its not right! ok, maybe she is trying to bribe me with the new trombone which i say is cool cos the slide is bronze and the bell is gold. cool right! but still i think andrea still deserves it more. now i feel guailty!
:D
thanks jessie for waiting with me!

2006-11-26T22:23:00.000-08:00

slacking at home the whole day! not doing anything productive. i feel guilty inside. went out yesterday. mother ramani from sri lanka came and had to go to the airport to fetch her and later to the hotel. consider it a fruitful trip and not boring thanks to mooris who accompanied me throught the day with smses. haha. congrats to him for finally getting his long awaited IPOD! haha!
anyway, guess what. i was so bored at home just now that i went to flap through some of the flyers i got from the suntec motor show. and i found the flyer for SC430! oh man. the car is totally charming. if only i had a few 100grands in my pocket and i could get a ageing pil that will make me grow faster so that i learn driving. WORK HARD REGINA! dream on!
band tomorrow. hope nothing bad happens! :P

2006-11-22T05:23:00.000-08:00

band camp rocks. maybe not everything. alot more bonding and getting to know more people better this camp but i find some stuff very disturbing and irritating. maybe its the way things are ran. but who cares, no one will listen to our little voices. ha...
got our squad tee finally! it looks ok! actually its not as bad i dread it to be. haha.
rating for this camp? better then anyother!
:P

2006-11-15T03:52:00.000-08:00

i'm so tired. didn't sleep enough last night cos i was burning midnight oil doing the squad tee. then this morning, had to call everyone to comfirm the design. but in the end changed the front to something better in the end. sigh. working non stop all day. what is worst is that i have to talk to edwin while working. talking about inspire at the same time? no way. at least i went to the printer's shop today and settled some stuff. now all i have to do is just resize the image to A4 and i'm done. big day ahead tomorrow. having band practise from morning til evening. someone tell me what is enough rest. haha, nvm, at least we got the tee done and although it is not the nicest but at least it will be the cheapest and the fastest to complete! yeah! thanks jessling!!!
:D

2006-11-12T23:06:00.000-08:00

i'm enjoying the day at home. peace at home at least. still cannot forget the beautiful cars yesterday. just imagine driving one down orchard road. don't have to speed, just slowly follow the traffic and you can just think of the faces that will stare at the car. haha, i swear its nicer then any in the movies. haha. i think i'm going car crazy. anyway, forgot to buy my school books. sigh. if only i had the motivation to start studying. too bad. whats the use of studying during the holidays. cos basically its no use. wait a moment. i'm talking rubbish. ahahahha!
bye! but to going crazy! car craze!
:D

2006-11-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

i will aspire to be RICH!!!! haha! i think i'm money crazy now. went to the motor show at suntac city today. it was great i tell you! everyone should go! i mean, there is just so many cars there. not the normal ones that i'm looking at but the charming ones. lots of sports car! maserati, ferrari, lamborghini and alot of other nice cars. if only i was old enough and rich enough. if only i had $500 000 to buy one. anyway. please only look at the models from those big cars company cos the rest are really not up to standard. haha, not that i am any better then then...
:D

2006-11-09T05:58:00.000-08:00

consider this band prac the most tiring as in SERIOUSLY ever so far. poor trombones had to set up the chairs for the forum today and bloody hell. it sucked so much. we carried everything down and i mean all the chairs and half way throught setting them into position, we were told to carry everyting up cos there is o levels. so we CARRIED everything up to the dramam studio with a super black face already. thanks nat for helping with 5 chairs. haha! then later comes the worst part. sia came and she wanted a combine. SOOOO we carried everything down again and with only the 6 of us to play today we damn tired and got private scolding and later we had to carry EVERYTHING up again. at least this time with others helping some. but still.... ~!@#$%^&*()

2006-10-31T06:07:00.000-08:00

state of confusion. i don't even understand myself. i don't know what i actually want. both ways just don't appeal to me. i don't understand my surroundings and what the hell is going on. to do it, i have to spend alot of time cos i believe that what is the point of doing it when you don't want to win in the end. maybe just let me have the oppotunity to try out for the finals. afterall there is nothing that i cannot afford to lose. just spend the bloody money and support me will you? you want me to do well and you are not willing to go all out for it. what the bloody hell is this stupid logic? but looking on the other side of the situation, will it be better if i just don't try, save your bloody money and my effort after all without the right combinations, i will not win also. i rather i spend the time learning a more useful thing rather than on totally nothing. see, i told you i am at a state of confusion. i'm weird. i guess. but who cares. i will have a battle of thoughts tonight and may the best thought win.
band today was crazy. sia as mad mooded( is there even a word like that?) and we played worst then normal. but at least we got to see a nice show today. haha, this really blur bus uncle drove his bus on the track and susan lim was screaming at him. poor track, maybe as i said, our school fees for next year might increase. anyway, trombones had the best view of the whole show!!! whatever. found out that i have to go to school on friday. how bad can it be. every bad thing just happens on this week. WHY!!!!!!!!
outing with nat, meichi, ivy, emily and angela tomorrow! hope it will be fun. cross fingers...
:(

2006-10-29T19:01:00.000-08:00

i have a goal for today. maybe i shall try to reach for it. maybe i shall not. that depends... its as difficult as reaching for the stars but not as impossible. decisions i have to make and decisions i will make...
:D

2006-10-28T23:05:00.000-07:00

i'm bored
someone please help me!!!
:(

2006-10-28T03:05:00.000-07:00

class BBQ yesterday. had lots of fun with everyone. especially nat, meichi and emily. went playing in the pool with our shorts and dunking xian hui into the pool. sorry, cannot help with emily. anyway, ate lots of food by the pool and it was totally fun!!!!

2006-10-19T19:54:00.000-07:00

break from school today. i wonder why, but nvm cos i'm enjoying the break away from band. sia didn't come yesterday, so it was rather slack with ong playing only the first phrase in each warm up. haha, but it was truely slacking. watched a chinese movie yesterday, some sorry teacher show, cannot say that its totally boring but its touching i can say. ok, shall not waste my time here slacking. haha, i have a goal in mind. haha, i'm going to watch all the dvds at home during the holidays. aaahhhh..... and grab the com while there is still a chance as my bro's o levels is going to end soon and he will cope on the com all day long. i don't care!!! i'm happy today!
:D
anyone wants so go to the global chinese music awards presentation with me?????

2006-10-16T06:28:00.000-07:00

band starts tomrrow. all the best to me. if i can survive it after don't know how many years of not practising. but hey, do you know this is the first time i actually hoped band never started. its really very tiring. but all the best to everyone still.
:D

2006-10-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

i was pissed at someone. i shall promise myself to work hard to prove to her that but only is she the richest and most smart among all until she can boss people around. i shall drive a lotus sports car and live in a condo at orchard road and invite her to my house with alot of people. i will shock her to her death! i shall word hard and prove myself. i can do it! its no longer world peace. i'm fighting! -war drums beating- the chief babarian is working!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-10T17:38:00.000-07:00

allow me wings to soar like a bird. never to look back but to invite the future always.

2006-10-09T05:36:00.000-07:00

touched on a sensitive issue just now. but for gods sake, please give me the chance and believe in me! i know it will be hard on everyone, but just believe in me for once. i really want to grab this oppotunity cos its really not easy to come. i want it not because i'm just concern about my future, but just a simple reason of allow space and the chance for me to prove myself to everyone that its not so easy after all and that i'm able to do it. you never get the feeling of people looking down on you, and now i believe is the chance. all you think about is securing the future and stuff but at my point of view, taking up is close to impossible task is a chance to prove to myself that i can do it. with burning passion, i find no reason why i will regret this decision and no reason i can cramble under the stress. i believe i can do it. please just give me the chance!!!!

2006-10-07T19:08:00.000-07:00

final paper in around 24 hours time. all the best reggie! katrina today, triple jem.
:D

2006-10-05T17:21:00.000-07:00

parents wedding anniversary on wednesday. dad brought us to petals for dinner. hardly much people in the restaurant. had a rib eye steak. i was fab, together with the mushroom cream and the potatos, it was AHHH!!! haha, but then i hated the salad cos its too sour for me. after that we had to go to the hospital to visit my grandma. yes, in hospital again. same ward! so i guess even the nurse remembers her. but this time its not so major. just a small operation. got well already, and she's now at home. too bad bro couldn't make it there. night study in school. at least he got to join us for the cake when we got home. didn't have much time to study, so i gave up, what is there to study for lit?
now, i'm wasting my time on youtube again. don't want to learn chinese idioms. they will make you into idiots. hahaha... i don't understand them! boo....
:D

2006-09-29T19:32:00.000-07:00

i think i'm sick or something. exams around the corner and i'm here slacking. ok, shall promise to study the whole day later. haha, like real. went back to cvps yesterday. spent so much precious time waiting for the rest to come and miss tan to be free. lots of time wasted. but then its fun! chat with some of them and got to catch up abit. haha! ok mugging time!
:D

2006-09-28T03:41:00.000-07:00

hmm. i shall do this quiz for pure fun!
Single, taken or crushing?
- hmm, single i guess. too unwanted? haha!
Are you happy with your life now?
- of cos! why be sad with life when there is so many great things happening!
When you meet the right person, will you fall in love with him/her fast?
- isn't it love at first sight? haha, this solely depends on who it is with. must have POWER! hahaha!
Have you ever had your heart broken?
- have my heart broken? how to? no like its made of glass... its made of thick muscles which is VERY tough.
Do you believe that there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
- never! you know how evil that is. its like cheating in a game of poker.
Would you take someone back if she cheats on you?
- of cos not! there is this chinese saying, a good horse does not eat behind grass.
Have you talked about marriage with another before?
- siao. this question is a total waste of time.
Do you want children?
- in future? hmm, i live by the day!
Do you want children?
- yeah. maybe, but i still live by the day!
If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best approach she should undertake to confess her feelings to you?
- never let me know. just do nothing and all is well and fine. world peace!!!
Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
- losing my freedom? no no... but it is really hard to say. haha, i cannot decide.
Be honest. What is the furtherest thing you and your ex did?
- huh? what you thinking about. little girl girl don't understand?! hahahhahaha...
Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yeah. maybe. can be possible. its after all about something that i have totally no clue about, in addition, its CHEMISTRY!
Are you romantic?
- yeah yeah yeah! who is not? but how would i know? must watch more korean drama to learn more.
Do you believe you can change someone?
- change? i hope that i will be able to. but i think its easlier for to change for the person
If you could married somewhere, where would it be?
- huh. japan? australia? italy? thailand? hongkong? i don't know? how am i suppose to decide now?
Do you give in easily when you're fighting?
- depends on who i am fighting with. and what i am fighting for. if its useless stuff that is just wasting my time. i rather save the energy. but if i really want the thing. i make sure i try my best!
Do you have feelings for someone right now?
- huh? huh? huh? huh? - act blur -
Have you ever wished to have someone but messed it up?
- another acting blur question!!
Have you ever broken a heart?
- you can say something like that! :P
If one day your best friend falls in love with the person you are deeply in love with, what will you do?
- she can have it. whats the use of fighting? world peace!
Are missing someone now?
- missing? does it matter? whY must it hAve a stupid answer?

done! sigh. i wasted so much time here. but who cares. exams starting tomorrow! wish me good luck and all the best to everyone! love the world!
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2006-09-27T04:20:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling happy. shuffle knows my feels as well. got to hear all the nice songs in one go! i think i'm weird. anyway, i finished geoexcept for like 3 chapters which i am totally not interested in. haha, the title of the topics just make me sick. as in not the content is sick not the subject is just boring itself. didn't go to study at KAP with erica, angela and wen jia. neither did i go to thomson plaza to study with ugenie, nat and mag. why? cos my father dragged me to buy some conputer stuff with him. bloody hell, waste my time! nvm, after all i don't intend to study for german. i shall just fail it and have an F9 on my ppr for it. i don't care! i'm just half high half dead. i don't know how to describe this state of emotion. just so confusing. yeah! see myself being weird!
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i wonder how i manage in the past. i must be superwoman then....

2006-09-25T05:45:00.000-07:00

bloody hell! my bloody hard drive was burnt to death. stupid thing. all my photos and songs gone! disappeared, forever lost. i hate it when things like this happen. not only am i angry and sick and tired for stuff like this, i got a bloody scolding from my mother. what the hell, i don't give a damn! is your bloody 20+ photos more important or is my 30G worth of stuff more inportant? please use your brain to think! i can just see steam puffing out of my head now!! ok ok, relex! had mep practical today. the studio booking thing kinda screwed up and my stupid tumb drive went loose half way through 'let it be'. haha, i think i am having 2 different personal! save me! just dream that tomorrow will be a better day! yeah! i 'love' life so much!
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if on our relationship would be as exciting and colourful as theirs. how nice would it be. the fun times we are going to have together. life would be as carefree and meaning as she!

2006-09-23T02:22:00.000-07:00

i'm slacking again. someone help me! anyway, congrats to me for doing well in the guitar exam! yeah!
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2006-09-20T04:30:00.000-07:00

i made a big decision that i hope i will not regrate. once, i promised myself that i will never even use the toss the coin method but today i just broke it. i was really confused and i guess i couldn't think of a better way to decide and it proves that the method sucks cos its totally not practical. haha, who cares right. anyway, not been studying much lately. just call it plain slacking. pray that i will buck up. pray hard. haha, all the best cos i'm going to die. haha! photo taking with fourfingers was fun!
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make it clearer if you want me to understand

2006-09-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

i'm still sick. boo...
happy birthday maryanne! love you!
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2006-09-16T07:33:00.000-07:00

nose still blocked. bloody irritating ok! and also my ears are blocked too, its just so weird. haha, anyway hsk today. total rubbish! its a waste of my time, effort and money! haha, maybe not totally but after all today is a saturday! rushed to plaza after that and had kfc for lunch with ugenie and nat. then rushed for guitar, nearly ran into my teacher on the way in. then half way through we heard the idol's MC talking and he looked at me and said, 'singapore idol down stair, you never go and watch?' haha, see i bet my teacher watches also and later he was like you support who? haha i'm smart enough to not get into a hady and jon fight so i just say i am fine with both.
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2006-09-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

haha, lets see, when was the last time i posted? haha. anyway, i am free today cos i'm on bloody hell MC. having terrible flu and fever. i think i slept the most today in the whole year, i think its more then 12 hours. the medicine just suck ok! i rather be in school doing the lit test and having to rush to finish all the long hw. being sick suck! i feel like i'm floating in the air now and my fingers hurt like hell, as in the joints in it. wonder how i'm going for electone lesson later will stiff fingers and a running away nose. too bad i cannot miss it cos pratical is next week. bloody hell!
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