spin around this garden of hope ;
Tuesday, April 04, 2006 @ 5:14 AM
confused
i don't know. missed band practice today to go to ju eng home for cip. i just sia should know that our whole class is missing as there is like alot of us from faith. haha.
then at ju eng home. i think our group kinda screwed up. cos like we were the first group to perform and that everyone was still very new to the place. so like i could not play the guitar properly and the people singing very softly. then when we came to a chord that we did not know how to play. the guitars were like suddenly no sound. then we were like asking cher if we could not play guitar for i dreamed a dream. but he said no and took nat's guitar and started playing. i can say that i was admired by his ability to play. but actually he did not press the strings hard enough. so the sound is like all bass and no like that higher notes. then he still play SO loud. then like cannot hear the singing at all. at least later, the group that went to cut onions came to perform and like all the elderlys we so excited. alot more excited then when we performed. then later cher was why can this group make them active while your group cannot? that shows that you all are not working hard enough. whatever! and i think he heard me bad mouthing him. haha... actually i feel guilt now.
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i want to be one just like you. i want to be more then anyone else. especially when you kept telling me that i can do it. but you know the truth, i can NEVER be one just like you. i should just stop dreaming, but i cannot control my thoughts. why is everyone around me having the thing i wanted all the while and they are complaining. stop temptation!