spin around this garden of hope ;
Wednesday, March 14, 2007 @ 5:10 AM
hello no one!
have not been updating much but i think no one will notice after all cos it has been dead for a seriously long time. but who cares, my life is just half screwed up.
just bought a new guitar, almansa 436. really liked it alot alot! it has a cedar top and indian rosewood for the sides and its gold tuning! aahhh.... i'm also contented with it. until now i still cannot believe that my dad actually bought it. its not cheap but he still bought it. i'm damn happy about it! i just cannot keep the feeling within me soon. aaaahhhhhh! it has a leather case too! and did i mention that he also bought a drum set for my brother. three cheers to daddy!
today band sucked. i don't know where to start with. i just don't want to elaborate. one bad thing after another. don't mention about what happened before band after all i know its 'my fault'. i wonder what i did wrong in the first place and maybe its really 'my fault'. i will always remember it then. anyway, actual band prac today still sucked. my throat damn pain. maybe thats why now i cannot talk. haha. finally there is peace in the world cos regina can't talk. i really suck. i really cannot cannot cannot play! i suck lah. thats the verdict. i really cannot play either piece. i shouldn't have played during combine, only spoils the sound. but thats not the worst. i know my tone and pitch sucks but can ppl just stop giving me pressure by turning their heads around and staring. its bloody irritating. its not like i don't know that i suck and don't want to change but sometimes its not in my control. i'm so sick of ppl telling me that i suck. I KNOW THAT MYSELF! and i'm trying to change. don't stare at me!
i talked to you today and you seem to forget everything of our past. although i had a strong front, but inside, i'm silently crying.